aaah az donya

man inja tanham,va migam khosh be hale to,va to unja anghadr pishnahad ke jaee baraye man nist,man inja rooye yek nimkat,to unja beyne hezaran nimkat,man inja gahi ehsase tanhaee mikonam,vali to unja hamishe agar tanha shavi(vali aya mishavi,shayad hatta yekbar ham in ehsas be to dast nadade).shayad mane tanha vaghti rooye in nimkat hastam,kasi dar unvare donya fereshteye hameye tanhaeehayash man basham,mibini?donya cheghadr nimkatharo bad michinad?yeki inja,yeki unja,va gahi hezaran baraye yek gahi ham hich baraye hezarani chon man.inja ma aragh mirizim va kar mikonim va vaze zendegiyeman in ast,dar anvare donya anha aragh mikhorando zendegiyeshan an,be rasti in tafavotha cherast?shayad tafavot dar noe rikhtane aragh va noe khordane an ast.dar bachegi moddatha doa mikardam ke khoda be man 2charkhe bedahad,ama faydeiee nadasht,roozi docharkheiee dozdidam va az an be bad doa kardam ke khoda man ra bebakhshad.man docharkhera nadozdidam,in jomalate dr.shariatist ama amookhtam ke baraye anche mikhaham talash konam na doa,mikhaham ba to basham,bad doa khaham kard ke khoda mara bebakhshad,chon mikhaham dar doosti hameye mehram ra be paye to berizam,aya to negahat faraz ra mibinad?aya nimkate tanhara?ye jeloye payat anche pooste jalebtari darad migozini?man aragh nemirizam,chon kar nemikonaam,ama aragh ham nemikhoram,be nazaram ba aragh rikhtan anche zibaeeye donyast nasibe ma nemishavad,zibaee male anjast,va nemikhoram,chon az khordanash ham faghat dar gongi,hadar raftane chizi chon omr nasibe man ast.man deli bina daram,va ba an doostat daram.delam tora mibinad,az pase in hame nimkat,az pase inhame mardom,man tora mikhaham va anha to ra,va tafavot ast beyne to ke ba roohe ziba,shekle zziba va dele daryaeeyat mikhahamat va toiee ke migooyand ama dar haghighat tora mikhahand ama kari ba rooho delo ghalbat nadarand,anha rooho delo ghalbat ra roozi mishekanand,chon ba zahere donya cheshme delat ra mibandand,be khode khoobat begoo,DELE MAN BIDAR BASH,to aya jarf mibini?